The wrong love

“I love you.” He said, hesitated a bit and added,” do you love m…”

“No…” I cut him off.

“Why?…I can see it in your eyes that you feel something for me…”

“I can’t love you.” I again cut him short.

I turned around to leave, he asked – ” Why can you not?” I walked away, and never looked back.

We had met at the office for the first time. I liked his company not because he was handsome or attractive, but because he listened to me. I always missed that. Nobody ever listened to me, everybody was busy talking and giving their opinion about what was right and what was wrong. He talked less and cared more. He would stare at me while I was looking away and the moment I would shift my gaze to him, he would drop his eyes. He held my hand for the first time when we were crossing the road together; not that I needed his help, but it felt good; I felt as if someone was there by my side. He would brush a strand of hair from my face and tuck it behind my ear when we had lunch together; it made me feel wanted and desired. I was happy that someone was there who noticed every little thing about me. I was not lonely anymore.

I realized he considered me more than a friend; I knew his silence said a lot about his feelings. I knew what he wanted, yet hesitated to ask. Every time I looked in his eyes, they asked me a question; a question I was afraid to hear and dreaded answering. I would turn my face away every time he gazed at me. The moment his hand touched mine, I jerked my hand away. The voice inside my head told me –

“What you are doing is wrong…it’s a sin.” But the one in my heart said –

“It doesn’t feel wrong.”

That day I decided I would end the relationship before it was too late; It was wrong keep him hanging on with a false hope. I waited the whole morning and rehearsed every single line I would tell him. We met at lunch time. He smiled at me; I swallowed hard. He waved to me, I didn’t. I walked slowly to him and said –

“I want to tell you something.”

“Me too.” He replied.

I looked at him; I wanted to see him one last time before going away. He looked happy, yet nervous. He was playing with his fingers out of nervousness; why? I had no idea. I didn’t know what he wanted to say. I closed my eyes to prepare myself before telling him the truth, but before I could open them he said – “I love you…”

I cut him off before he could finish the question – Do you love me; it was the same question I was afraid to hear. My heart shouted yes, but my head said – you can’t. Eventually my head won; I said what it wanted me to say. I walked away without answering his last question. But the question still rings in my ear –

Why can you not?

Because I’m married.

Because I have a husband.

Because it’s a tenacious belief that I’m not supposed to love anybody except him.

Because I’m not allowed to fall in love anymore.

I wanted to answer, but before I could do that, my heart asked –

…then why did you?

I had no answer to that; I still don’t have one. Why did I fall for him?

– Chirasree, a dreamer.

29 thoughts on “The wrong love

  1. confusion…sobai ekhane gie atkae…bhalo likhecho

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    1. Thank you 😊

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  2. Sad start..smiling about half of the story then ended with a bang. Hahaha .. Well, that’s life.. You can’t fall inlove except with your husband/wife.. You just can’t..
    You can’t control your feelings ..but you can control your action 🙂

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    1. 😊😊…thank you for taking time to read it

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      1. It is worth it ,dear. 🙂

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      2. ☺️☺️…thank you

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  3. Ahh a heartbreaking story..was it real or fiction?

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    1. This is fiction Abhishek :)…I’m happy that you liked it

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      1. Ohh great work..wonderful fiction story..it seemed so real

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      2. Thank you 🙂

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  4. Because the heart has its reasons that reason ignores. Great post 👏

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    1. Thank you 🙂 🙂 …happy that you always read my stories and leave your feedback

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      1. No problem👍💯

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  5. Oh man, that was good! I was a bit disappointed at the beginning but overall happy about the decision she made at the end….great job!

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    1. Thank you for taking time to read it :)…your feedback means a lot

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      1. Of course! You’re welc!

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  6. hey,
    are you interested in writing for a website? its a community for writers.

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    1. Please leave details of the website…I would like to go through it once 🙂

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  7. You planted the idea that their relationship was off from the very beginning. Those clues grounded the reveal of your twist. Nice work!

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    1. 😊😊…thank you for letting me know your thoughts on it

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  8. I like how you circled back to the beginning of the conversation and did it without confusing the reader.

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    1. Thank you for you feedback..😊..means a lot

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  9. There is non fiction in this fiction story of yours. It holds interest both in characters and their feelings. Like the ending as a moral – one of them is married and second it’s office. Legally it should not happen. What do you say?

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    1. Yes…I agree. Thanks a lot for leaving your feedback 😊😊

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  10. I love how the reader is left wondering until the very end. A compelling piece that sheds light on the reality that we can be in a relationship and yet, feel alone.

    I also like that it is from a woman’s point of view. We more often think of men having attraction for others while in a relationship but it can happen regardless of gender. Thanks!

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    1. Thanks to you for reading it and leaving your feedback which matters a lot😊😊

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  11. As story writer myself this kinda suspense was good starting and ending at same time amazing I am really fan of your work now

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    1. 😇😇…I’m honored

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